so, we beat vjc by 2.. played no part in it though.. legs had to cramp at such a time. was quite pissed. both quads leh.. ouch. shit, think i'm de-proving liao, as oppose to improving. damn. gotta be able to play soon. it's damn frustrating, you can't imagine. besides, we've got a chance. i mean, we give it a shot. who knows?

you know, i've been thinking about that...maybe perhaps i haven't left things fully. you now, throughout the few, that one hurt me the most. i dunnoe why also, but it did. perhaps it still does. i've got to discover. hope.

*follow ur heart, pursue ur dreams, then u can discover the magic *within

hmm. maybe i just need some sleep.

kinda late now..gonna sleep soon. most of today was spent out..with sec4 classmates. but they love lanning and i don't..so thanx to kenneth teh for pooling with me a while..haha..whatever. need to pool more. but wtf, as if i've got the time. forget about playing, boy. go study if you've got any time. that's what i'm telling myself. stop slacking around already. anyhow, looking forward to vj friendly tomorrow. means a lot to me.. i dunno..perhaps i've got a point to prove. but that's not the main thing. just play damn freaking hard and it'll be good. oh another thing, hate to play people out so apologises to zx for tmr. sigh sorry. i damn blur.

hmm. i don't know how to put this but it's an interesting/weird situation. not saying i'm enjoying it though. might have screwed things a little. i mean after all it's no harm. but i'm not happy that it's spoiling relationships. oh well if it builds others. ok there's nothing.

sat out training today again. 2 days already. it's sick. so shit being injured so near start of season. luckily it isn't too serious. i think. hope to be able to run fully sat.. really psyche up for vj friendly. it'll be some fun! woo looking forward to it.. today in school was okay..seeing more and more of.. it's interesting lah. it also interesting just sitting in the canteen with classmates observing people.. haha.. oh well.

want to watch passion. still underaged though.. haha like i care. tmr's gonna be gone too. prob would pool some. so long never play liao. haha..would be fun. not too sure about soccer though. my leg is damn pain! don't know what's the problem. quad area. muscle? ligament? ow. really really wanna play on saturday.. it's important to me.

gotta study more. trying to cramp more work unsuccessfully. end up sleeping most of the time. gee. no good.

wtf?! how did ac milan lose 0-4 to depor??? i know depor's good but milan is the best for now.. wtf. this year's champs league is mighty screwed. haha.. whatever,

...well, i suppose that it's a nice thing to hear. yep.
you're not bad yourself.

my life is chem now lor.. supposed to do the whole spectrum of chemistry. like hi, i take 4 subjects if you didn't realise! haha ok.. it's my own fault after all. sucks man..should have done okay for ct i know..sigh. regrets huh. oh well, got back most subjects already.. it's spelling an ugly word..not as nice as BABE last year.. haha. sigh. yet to get bio back .my fav subj, right. that was a joke. it's far from it.. hmm if bernadou became our teacher again, i'll definitely put in so much more effort. and not keep failing. it's embarrassing actually. you now, right now my academics is at its lowest point for years i think.. losing confidence in myself..something that took a while to build up. hmm maybe it's not that bad. suppose i'll have lotsa time after season? yeah. speaking of which is next saturday. cool. oh, anyway our jerseys are nice.. oh tried listening to J1 council election speeches today cos know a few juniors running..but got chased back into lecture by yeo yk.. damn. ok i've told myself that i'll concentrate in lectures from now on. cuz it's damn sick to read notes yourself and not be able to make sense. studies are important.